Blogging Funk

It seems that I've been in a bit of a blogging funk lately. I've just been really busy and then when I sit to catch up on a few of my fav bloggers any free time I had is gone! So, today I'm going to turn this train around. Time to shake the funk and get back at it.

I'm leading the Esther study at church and we're 1/2 way thru. Let me just say that it has been AMAZING! The Lord has spoken to me over and over and over. Not just thru His Word but thru the incredible women who are participating with me. We have a great group and a variety of ages are represented and I just love how the Lord uses the older ladies to encourage me and I hope I'm doing the same for them. We've prayed together, laughed and of course, cried - we are girls after all - but God has spoken!! Who knew that sweet little Hadassah - a Jewish orphan girl who would become Queen of Persia would have so much in common with a stay-at-home mom of 3! Who knew?! The Word is alive and active I tell ya!!

Today we watched a video session on fear. When I told my friend Lisa that I was leading a study on fear today she just started cracking up! You see, I'm a chicken! Total Queen of Chickendom (maybe that's what I have in common with Esther - we're both Queens! haha). In fact, I have seen it start to manifest into my kids too. My daughter is scared to death of bikes. My middle son the dark. My oldest of heights. Fear. Ugh. I know it's sad.

Here's a few of things I've been afraid of in my life. The dark, close quarters, locked doors, bugs, the woods, being alone. Do I really need to go on? I think you get the point. I mean, my man always knew that if we went somewhere and I went to the restroom and wasn't back within 5 minutes he was to come looking for me because I was likely locked in the stall. For real! The list could go on and on. Finally the Lord said "Girl, when are you gonna start trusting me?". He put a friend in my life who pointed out how irrational my fears were and not to mention how utter disobedient I was being. Then He put my feet into the fire and took away the one person in my life who I knew would ALWAYS keep me safe - my Daddy - so that I would be left with no choice but to find my security in Him. So today as we watched that video on fear I truly did have a testimony. Sure, there's time when the enemy does his best to get my mind going. Like, when the bus is 5 minutes late or my man hasn't called me all day, but thank you Jesus this is one lesson I can say that I've learned. Mark 5:36 "Don't be afraid, just believe." I believe God loves me. I believe His plans are for my good and not my harm. I believe He wants me to live life to the full. I believe. I believe that when something dreadful happens...and I've lived thru enough to know that it will...He will be faithful! He will sustain! He will be with me thru it!

What's the worst that can happen to me? I die? Then I unzip this cloak of flesh and step into my heavenly body (which will be a size 2 by the way) and be in the Presence of the Very One who will wipe away all my fears, all my tears and be at peace. I say, BRING IT!