Saturday, February 3, 2007

Get out of that courtyard!!!

Today the Lord held up the mirror and said "Take a second look girlie!" I didn't really like what I saw. He's been working on me so much this last week and He's made changes that are evident to me and my family but I found myself slipping back towards the courtyard yesterday.

A friend who has had some VERY difficult financial trouble - not of her own doing - was sharing with me how the Lord is blessing them with a new home. Their moving into a GREAT neighborhood and a HUGE house. While I stood there absolutely THRILLED for her - I truly am! - in the back of my mind I went to "Lord, when will it be my turn?". YUK! I didn't dwell on it and let it go but still had that thought.

This morning He led me to the story of Joseph. I went there to look at how the Lord was with Joseph in prison and thru slavery and all that and yet the Lord had a better agenda in mind. He sent me to the beginning of Joe's story - to the jealous brothers! OUCH! I'm so glad that the Lord stopped me at the edge of the courtyard instead of letting me get all the way in there. Don't get me wrong, I still had some cleansing this morning but at least it was a short trip this time around! Thank you Father for forgiving me and for reminding me that I need to "take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." II Corin. 10:5 (emphasis mine) Not just actions but my thoughts too! I may never be blessed with a HUGE house but Lord I am finding my satisfaction in You, not my square footage! Thank you for growing me Lord! I love you!