Friday, January 4, 2008

Sometimes He calms the storm and other times...

He calms His child. Today the Creator of the Universe is cradling this child in His arms and calming me. He has to because He's all I have.

There's been some problems with my mom over the last year, things just haven't been right. She had a stroke the day my brother-in-law died and since then we've all noticed little things. Things forgotten. Social skills slipping. Mixed directions. Little things. A week before Christmas however, she was driving and ran up onto a curb and busted her tire. She wasn't hurt - thank God - but she was VERY confused after that and was hospitalized because her blood pressure was high. After a battery of tests - all of which were normal - we were told that given her decreased mental status from the stroke and the fact that her BP was so high, that was the cause of her problems and once her BP was under control, things should be fine. Boy, were they wrong.

Yesterday, after some very serious things came up with my mom, we were told that all her tests from the hospital were NOT normal. Her CT scan shows very clear dementia. She is now unable to live alone. She can't drive. She can't have access to her meds without supervision.

So as my sisters, my brother and I figure out how we're going to deal with this, my Abba Daddy sends me a little kiss this morning thru my "God Calling". Here's the title for today. "Do Not Plan". "All is well. Wonderful things are happening. Do not limit God at all. He cares and provides. Leave tomorrow's burden. Christ is the Great Burden-bearer. You cannot bear His load and He only expects you to carry a little day-share." Does that blow your mind, or what?! THEN, guess what my devotional verse was this morning. Ps 121:1-2 "I lift my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." Somebody wants to say "there is a God in heaven"!!!!

Father God, Abba Daddy, thank you for loving me. Thank you for comforting me. Thank you for reminding me that you are the source of my strength. That you have a plan. That you are in control and I don't need to try to fix this!! Oh I how love you so!!! Thank you. I will lift my eyes to the hills and your praise shall continually be on my lips! I love you Lord!!!


Nicki said...

Oh Val, my heart hurts for have been through so much. And how awesome is your "God calling" for today!!! That is just the neatest book ever!

I will be praying for your situation, I hope it all works out smoothly. I know family stuff can get sticky sometimes, but I will be praying that the Lord will speak very clearly to you for His plans.

Love you!

Mandy said...

I love that - the title, "and other times, He calms the child"... so true - I can say I've experienced that. But, isn't it crazy that we experience God's faithfulness, we know it's true, but the next time the storm comes we still run around frantically (ultimately doubting God's power over a little, to Him, storm!) And yet, He is still faithful and oh so patient.

Thanks for all your sweet and funny comments on my blog - you're a good friend and I appreciate you! I have just prayed for your mother and the situation with your family. It can't be easy, deciding what to do, but God loves us when we're weak because He is strong. I'm so glad you are leaning on Him for strength and wisdom. You and your family are in my prayers!

Alyce said...

Hi Val,
I am very sorry for what you and your family are going through with your mother. It can't be easy watching her in that condition. I pray that you will be comforted in the coming days.

Living Beyond said...

Hi there - let me introduce myself - I'm Shelley and I came to you via a post Leigh left on my blog. I just read your post and just wanted to tell you how sorry I am to hear about your Mom - I cannot imagine your turmoil and I dread the day when my Mom starts to fail.

BUT I rejoice with you that you have such a deep personal walk with the Lord that He can communicate so clearly to you and your situation - He is a wonderful comforter isn't He! I'm curious to know what your - "God Calling" is - sorry I forget what you said and can't get back to your post without losing this message duh!!

So I pray His strong arms of comfort to hold you tight and to direct every decision and plan BUT for Him to soothe you and sing His song of love over you.

God Bless

Valarie said...

Thanks for the words of love and support everyone! Don't you love how God uses us to be His hands and feet?! He's so good!

Shelley, "God Calling" is a devotional book by A.J. Russell and I'm tellin' you that it will BLOW YOUR MIND!!! God has spoken to me in this book so often that I really feel like I hear Him speak my name!! LOVE IT!!!

Melissa said...

oh sweet girl... it's so amazing that we can lean on Him so much and He never gets tired. We can not deny His faithful hand. He sends just the right words when we seek Him. Isn't that amazing?? I am so sorry. I know it has to be extremely hard. I love you and I am praying for you and your family as you seek to find the best situation for your mom. He will provide!! Love you!!

Kim said...

I just love my copy of God calling...I received it as an encouragement gift from one of my parents just before Christmas. So glad you stopped by to see me the other day...I loved chatting with you. I am praying for your mom and I pray that relationships with her will continue to mend and heal and that you and your siblings will be able to embrace her and show her the love of Christ. See you tomorrow.